We are back in Hawaii and I’m pleasantly sleeping 9 hours a night and napping on the beach. This is my happy place.
I finally heard the results of my endometrial biopsy. It only took 4 weeks and 2 emails for me to finally get an answer……which wasn’t really much of an answer. My endometrium was “in phase” meaning “normal” and that my hormones are in sync with my uterine lining. This is good news, it really is, but it just leaves more unanswered questions as to why I’m infertile. I’m still in the camp that I have immune issues.
And on that note, my RE has finally given in on letting us try the dexamethasone with our last FET cycle that is coming up in November. But, she isn’t a fan of adding the lovenox, thinks that the benefits do not outweigh the risk and therefore is not recommending it. She said that since I don’t have a clotting disorder diagnosed that she thinks adding the baby aspirin (like last time) is sufficient to help with the implantation. I’m not 100% happy, but at this point I’ll take her being on board with the dexamethasone.
Speaking of, as much as I want to add the steroid, I’m a little nervous about side effects. Every side effect will be completely worth it if I get pregnant, but acne, weight gain, moon face, insomnia, etc. Doesn’t sound like a bowl of fun?!
As far as the adoption avenue, we’ve gotten a little discouraged hearing the timelines for adoption. It’s still on our plate, but we haven’t started filling out applications just yet (which isn’t helping the timeline at all!).
Hubby and I’s 4th anniversary is approaching…..our plan was to get pregnant one year after being married, the plan hasn’t exactly worked out like we envisioned, but I wouldn’t trade the past 3 years, I think this experience has brought us closer and I’m trying to focus on what we do have instead of what we don’t. I spoke to one of my favorite pastors from our church last week, she prayed with me over the phone and talked about “relinquishment”. Giving up the one thing that we want more than anything……surrendering. I’m holding onto my white flag, I’m just having a hard time waving it up in the air just yet.