Finding Answers and Exploring Options
First off……Happy Fourth of July! Both Hubby and I are off for the rest of the week, today we taking it easy around the house until friends arrive later this afternoon to BBQ and enjoy the sun. We have had nothing but beautiful weather here in the Northwest (not to be confused with North West, Kanye and Kim’s new daughter, ugh!).
As many of you know from my last post our last IVF, IVF #3 was another failure. This time around I was much more angry/frustrated/irritated than sad, it made it a little easier to move forward the following days, but I still woke up and felt like the day we got the results was a dream.
I started my period on Monday and had a baseline ultrasound yesterday morning, everything looked quiet. I started 5 mg of letrozole yesterday and will take the letrozole until July 7th. I will return to my clinic likely on July 12th for a follicular dynamic. We are doing a mock cycle this month in preparation for an endometrial biopsy.
We have one final FET left in our Attain program. We have another week off from our jobs in early September and will aim to do the FET at that time.
Hubby and I feel really defeated and are facing the reality that all of these ART treatments still may not bring us a biological child. We have considered a gestational carrier (if our embryos are genetically normal) and donor eggs (if it is only my eggs that are bad), but now we are seriously considering adoption. We know that we will parents some way, and we know that we will love any child that we bring into our family. We love our 2 cats so so much and they aren’t even humans! We are just now starting to get information from family and friends who have gone through adoption or know of people who have and know that even the adoption process can be a lengthy one. We just need to put our desires to have a child into an active process, we can’t just sit back, throw our hands up and say “it’s just not meant to be”.
It is meant to be, when our family from Hawaii was visiting, their 4 year old daughter just fell in love with Hubby, when I saw him interacting with her and their 7 year old son, I couldn’t help but fall in love with him even more. He is going to make the most amazing father.
Thank you to all of you for your kind words and support. Reading your messages really made those first couple of days bearable. And thank you to those of you who have reached out with information about things we may need to consider and clinics we may want to explore in the future.
Enjoy your 4th of July!