Four Months

The holidays are almost here!  I love love love fall, it is my favorite time of year and fall is even more special to me now than it was in the past.  It was about this same time last year that we had our last embryo transfer (a FET) and when, for the first time in my life, I was actually pregnant!

The Wednesday before Thanksgiving last year I had taken a HPT, gotten into the shower and checked it when I got out.  The faintest second pink line was on the test and my heart leap, literally leap and felt like it was in my throat.  I quickly ran over to our bed and woke Hubby up around 5 AM and made him come to the bathroom to see.  After rubbing his eyes and putting on his glasses, Hubby agreed that there was a second line!  I distinctly remember driving to work that day, full of guarded hope and listening to One Republic’s Counting Stars.  That song still holds a special place in my heart.

Lately I been, I been losing sleep
Dreaming about the things that we could be
But baby, I been, I been prayin’ hard
Said no more counting dollars
We’ll be counting stars
Yeah, we’ll be counting stars

Having that first positive HPT was a special secret that Hubby and I could share for a little while before we told anyone that our last and final IVF cycle finally worked.

Looking back, my how life has changed since then.  Today, I look at Jemma and Zoe and my heart overflows with love.  To think of two small balls of cells that were once frozen to these beautiful baby girls is nothing short of a miracle.  God is so good!

At four months, Jemma and Zoe are so much fun.  We are constantly getting wide grins, occasional laughs, eyes of wonder, and snuggles.

Both girls still love their baths, love car and stroller rides, putting their hands and fingers in their mouths, love when we sing to them and both are quick to recognize us and their grandmas who take such good care of them when we are away at work.

Jemma especially loves when  you talk to her and loves bouncing on your leg while you sing to her and spell out her name and loves having her head rubbed.

Zoe especially loves when you smile and laugh with her, loves kicking her legs, gives the biggest smiles first thing in the morning and loves when you dance around while holding her.

The girls had their four-month check-up last week and are both doing great.  The doctor said they are definitely healthy and in fact called Jemma a “big baby”.  Hehe!


Weight:  14 pounds 12 ounces

Length:  25 inches

Head circumference:  16.65 inches


Weight:  13 pounds 2 ounces

Length:  24.5 inches

Head circumference:  15.87 inches

Jemma is a bit bigger than Zoe in all measurements, so we’ll have to see if the trend continues.

We are looking forward to our first trip with the girls, a weekend down to California for my brother-in-law’s wedding and also looking forward to the upcoming holidays.  This year will be unlike any other year of holidays, Jemma and Zoe’s first Thanksgiving, first Christmas, first New Year and our first year as parents.

Jemma and Zoe recently were photographed for a children’s clothing catalog, Bunnies by the Bay, here are a couple of the photos:





Four Months

Four Months

Cheering on the Seattle Seahawks!

Cheering on the Seattle Seahawks!

Happy Thanksgiving coming up!



9 thoughts on “Four Months

  1. I love bunnies by the bay! They have the cutest bunny boots for baby girls!

    I think it’s amazing to look back a year, 2 years, etc later and try to remember how hard it was leading up to our happy endings. I think that overwhelming peace that envelopes us after finally getting pregnant (& staying pregnant) overshadows the darkness before it. I remember being seriously depressed, but HOW depressed, I can’t remember. I remember it all lifting once we had great betas. Yes, never forgotten, but lightened by the happiness!

    I am so glad you’ve had a full year of happiness and peace after your long road to these lovely girls!

    • Wow, I’m surprised you know of Bunnies by the Bay, I had only recently heard of the company. Their stuff is so cute!

      I agree, the overwhelming love and happiness from having overcome infertility does help make the past look less dark. There were some very tough times, but they were all worth it in the end. I think us infertiles can really appreciate the miracle of a baby!

  2. Ahhh, they’re are sooo beautiful! I got tears in my eyes reading about your year of firsts and thinking of how much different Thanksgiving and Christmas will be for us this year. The past bunch of years were awful, especially last year with it being so close to the loss. I can’t wait to feel the happiness of the holidays!!!!

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