7dp5dt-It’s over……99% sure at least

I’ve been feeling as though this IVF #2 hasn’t worked for a few days already (I’m just now admitting it out loud), but this AM I gave myself confirmation on my thoughts.  I broke down and did a home pregnancy test…..only to see a negative result.

My week has happened exactly how it did with IVF #1.  Started having significant watery fluid (nurse told me it is a normal side effect of the progesterone suppositories), then about 5dp5dt I had this severe cramp.  Last time the cramp happened 4dp5dt and was so intense that I had to lie down in a ball and couldn’t move, this time it happened the morning of 5dp5dt was far less intense, but in the same location.  Then, this AM brown spotting showed up exactly like it did with IVF #1.

I originally told myself I wasn’t going to take a home pregnancy test and was just going to wait for my beta, but I don’t want to live in false hope for 2 more days, I just want to confirm my terrible suspicions.

I’ll keep using the progesterone suppositories until Sunday, but at least now I won’t dread the phone call after the beta as much as I did last time.

As much as I’ve wanted to have the “whatever happens happens” mindset, I can’t honestly tell you that I hurt any less.  I feel like my body is failing me.  Hubby and I thought that since we had embryos to freeze this time, that the embryo quality may have been better this time, but now I think my body is an inhospitable environment.

My mother-in-law says I need to keep the faith…….it’s hard to feel that way right now.  I’ll let all of you know the actual results after the weekend.  I’m 99% sure it’ll be negative….

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19 thoughts on “7dp5dt-It’s over……99% sure at least

  1. I am so sorry ((((((((((hugs)))))))))))))) My RE did say after my fresh IVF failure that sometimes it could all the hormones in your body is causing not the ideal environment for an embryo to implant…my e2 levels were pretty high and then I was successful on the FET…maybe a FET could be your ticket…dont ever give up!!!

    • I totally believe this. My RE has said the same thing and I was just reading up on this last night that FET’s are becoming more popular and successful because they allow our bodies to rest after retrieval before expecting it to host an embryo. When we had our first failed IVF cycle, my RE said that my body just wasn’t ready. I am really hoping the FET is what you need!

  2. I am so sorry to read this! Hoping for a miracle for you! I’ll be thinking about you. I agree with the above comment too…I’ve read a few blogs of ladies who could never get pregnant on fresh cycles but got pregnant on FETs. Maybe that will be the ticket for you!

  3. I am so sorry but I am hoping you just have a late implanter. I completely understand the pain and frustration of a failed cycle so if you need to talk PM me. IF it is a BFN I hope the FET works for you. Infertility sucks….

  4. Hi, there. I hopped over from Kim’s blog. I just want to say that I’m thinking of you. I won’t say to hold out hope because – you know – you know how this stuff works. But – there is a chance so I’ll hold out hope for you 🙂 And if you do get the BFN at your beta, keep in mind that your docs learned more about you and your protocol from this latest attempt. Something good WILL come of this!

    Hang in there!

  5. Have you considered a FET? and in the meantime– do some immune testing? It could very well be perfectly good embryos that can’t implant due to an immunological thing. Most REs are clueless about this– in fact there’s only 5 reproductive immunologists in the US, and only 3 labs capable of doing the testing. Email me if you want more info.

  6. I don’t know what FET is, but what nice support and suggestions from others who’ve been in your shoes. You’re never alone on this journey! Xoxo.

  7. You poor little thing. Sending you a thousand hugs through the net. I do have a paper somewhere discussing the statistical evidence to support frozen embryos as your readers above mention. Will try and find it and post it for you. In the mean time look after yourself. We are all thinking of you x

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  9. I am so sorry it didn’ t work for you this time and I know that keeping the faith is so hard!!
    I agree with Georgette, do some immune testing. My first failed IVF we believe was due to my activated NK cells.
    Before my second cycle I started juicing regularly and try to go as gluten free as possible (can’t give up milk to go dairy free yet but trying). I noticed a big difference in egg quality at retrieval and transfer. I can’t say for sure it was due to the diet changes but that’s the only thing I changed. My protocol was almost exactly the same as well.
    I wish you the best of luck!!!

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