7dp5dt-It’s over……99% sure at least
I’ve been feeling as though this IVF #2 hasn’t worked for a few days already (I’m just now admitting it out loud), but this AM I gave myself confirmation on my thoughts. I broke down and did a home pregnancy test…..only to see a negative result.
My week has happened exactly how it did with IVF #1. Started having significant watery fluid (nurse told me it is a normal side effect of the progesterone suppositories), then about 5dp5dt I had this severe cramp. Last time the cramp happened 4dp5dt and was so intense that I had to lie down in a ball and couldn’t move, this time it happened the morning of 5dp5dt was far less intense, but in the same location. Then, this AM brown spotting showed up exactly like it did with IVF #1.
I originally told myself I wasn’t going to take a home pregnancy test and was just going to wait for my beta, but I don’t want to live in false hope for 2 more days, I just want to confirm my terrible suspicions.
I’ll keep using the progesterone suppositories until Sunday, but at least now I won’t dread the phone call after the beta as much as I did last time.
As much as I’ve wanted to have the “whatever happens happens” mindset, I can’t honestly tell you that I hurt any less. I feel like my body is failing me. Hubby and I thought that since we had embryos to freeze this time, that the embryo quality may have been better this time, but now I think my body is an inhospitable environment.
My mother-in-law says I need to keep the faith…….it’s hard to feel that way right now. I’ll let all of you know the actual results after the weekend. I’m 99% sure it’ll be negative….